Realism is my middle name. Never have I been a glass-half-full sort of person, but from what I have fought through, and no doubt may have to fight again (see, there is my realistic mind talking again!), I know that although I am different I am no weaker than anyone else. If anything, I’m stronger.
Project Happiness is a personal goal I have set myself, but also one I want to share. After going through a huge change in my life four years ago when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis, I have spent many hours seeing multiple counsellors and a private psychiatrist. My low moods have caused my self-confidence to dwindle and my anxiety to overpower me.
It isn’t until recently where I have proved that I can be the best I can be through the toughest of times. I proved I could finish university with a first-class degree and achieve a dream entry level job before I had finished my final exams. As my dad always says, no one can take this away from me and I will have it forever!
I haven’t had to visit my psychiatrist for almost a year now and I think that is largely to do with the people I have surrounded myself with; that keep me grounded, always make me laugh and I have no worries or doubts about. I trust them.
Another huge factor I have instilled into my life is fitness. Four to five times a week may sound excessive, and it is not recommended for everyone, but as someone in remission – it has now been a year since my last biological infusion – and sits in an office for eight hours a day, I feel it is necessary and a huge release both physically and mentally.
I still go through weeks, even months, of low moods but exercise is something I can run away to and stop myself from overthinking. Planning what workouts I do keeps my mind off negative thoughts and as something I enjoy, I look forward to it. Seeing results makes me proud and the stronger I see myself, the stronger I mentally feel. I don’t think many gym members would know I had RA, I go at my own pace but I push myself to be the best I can be.
Three months ago I also started kickboxing. Since the age of four I went to ballet and tap classes which built discipline and, as I used to moan about, muscle. Since then, I had yet been able to find an affordable, enjoyable hobby which also allows me to meet new people. I think kickboxing may be my new active obsession. It’s powerful, energetic and expressive. I have taken to it quite naturally and it is something that can give someone like me more confidence.
My project to be happy in the skin I’m in is just beginning and I can’t wait to see how far I can go,
Love Sasha “The Realist”.
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(Any opinions expressed in Sasha’s blog are not necessarily shared by Arthur’s Place. Nothing that you read in Sasha’s blog constitutes medical advice.)